17.19 | BAGIAN 2: KENALKAN...

Monday, February 19, 2018

Hari ini saya ingin memperkenalkan seseorang tepat di hari ulang tahunnya. Dia adalah salah satu dari sedikit orang yang benar-benar mengubah hidup saya. Dia seseorang yang Insya Allah akan membangun mimpi-mimpi bersama saya. Dia yang bisa menerima, menyayangi dan mencintai saya dalam kurang dan lebihnya. 

Petra Joshua Romario Gultom

Kami bersahabat sejak 2009 dan mulai November tahun lalu memutuskan berpacaran, kemudian pada tanggal 25 Januari kemarin dia menyematkan cincin di jari manis saya beberapa jam sebelum kepergian saya ke Melbourne, Australia (bagian 1). 

in my fairytale, he's my prince
in my movie, he's my hero
in my body, he's my heart
in my life, he's everything 


Saturday, February 17, 2018

Dear You,  

The first time we talked about our favorite movies and series, I knew you were very passionate and smart person. I knew I liked talking with you, had a discussion with you about every single thing from the simplest like weather to the most complicated of them all, life meanings. But I have to be purely, completely, deeply honest with you, never in my mind, I would have guessed that you, my very dear best friend would mean so much to me. 

Just a little reminder that some parts in this letter will be very cheesy, lovey-dovey to you but I have so many things to say to you that I want the world know how much you mean to me. 

To start off the letter... 

I want to say that you have changed my life in so many positive ways that I couldn't even believe there's one person could possibly changed my whole world. 

I wasn't looking for you. I just found you. Or maybe the right thing to say is, you found me. We became friends for year, then became best friends for years to get to know each other personalities, hobbies, fears, hopes and dreams and throughout the process of finding each other, I never saw we blossomed into something very beautiful.

You came into my life, saved me and changed my whole world. I didn't know how you did it. My life wasn't at its best before you - I felt alone, abandoned, and lost. Yes, I had my family and my other best friends, but somehow, they never knew about those things that only you knew. It was painful when we didn't talk. It was like... I always need you. 

Being your best friend is amazing. 
But being your woman is magical. 

What we have is truly something special. It may wouldn't work for anyone else, but I'm grateful it works for us, even better. I love how we're best friends so we are already open about each other. I 'm glad we had a phase when things got rough but we through it together. I always know we can get through whatever life throws at us.

I'm forever grateful you stumbled into my life and became such a big part of it. Words will never do the justice to thank you, but let me try... 

Thank you for knowing what to say and how to handle me. I know, I'm the worst when it comes to me and my confidence but you always know how to talk and calm me down. I know I'm not the easiest person to deal with, but you do a really amazing job and always know how to make me smile that no one can. 

Thank you for always supporting me in everything I do, even smallest thing. It feels great to know that there's one person that already know what I think before I say it. You always encourage me, teach me how to be brave, how to evolve. You make me want to be the best version of myself. 

No matter how far I am, you always make me feel loved. Even when I'm all alone in another country, live a new life with new culture and job and I have to adapt and for God's sake, it's all very overwhelming but you, my dear fiancĂ©, always know how to make me feel that I am loved and everything is going to be okay because I am fine and strong and I have so many people love me for who I am. You make me feel precious. You make me feel humbled and happy. 

With you, I learn so many things. I learn that in order to love someone, I have to love myself. You teach me how to love myself even when I feel like it's not possible. You inspire me everyday and I'm blessed and the luckiest to be a part of your life. You gave me permission to learn about your mind and your heart, it is absolutely the highest privilege. 

Right now, we're long distance but please remember that I will come back into your hug and I will never leave your side. This time, my love, is hard. I know. It's pain in the ass and I have to be honest, there are so many times I wished you were here with me, by my side, so I can lay in your chest, hold your hand, but this is the phase we have to get through upon the beautiful future ahead of us. 

Above all, thank you for loving me for who I am. Words can't describe how much it means to me to be loved by amazing guy like you. I will never know how to express how happy I am to be your woman, to have a time when you got down on your knee, asked me to marry you. I wish we're together even the day after forever. I love you because you are you.

With love,